(personal blog post)
I know I haven't been posting. Life happens, work piles up, time slips away and I end each day tired and unsatisfied. Not with God, but with what little I have managed to do each day. Distracted, frustrated and worn out.
Genesis 50:20 (NASB) - As for you, you meant evil against me, but God meant it for good in order to bring about this present result, to preserve many people alive.
Nope, I haven't been struck with delusions of grandeur, thinking the trial I face has epic ramifications. But I do see hope for my future, hope which I did not have before. And it comes from someone trying something bad, thinking that it is a viable threat to force compliance from me.
And it is amusing. Threatening to leave is bad only if their absence means less good stuff happening, or more bad stuff coming my way. And some people are such losers that their absence means less burden and more room for me to manuever. Such people should not threaten to leave.
I call their bluff.
I will not give in. Now what are they going to do? They have to either leave (and show that their "threat" was real) or back down (and lose face, as i will certainly rub it in). It is such a relief, I finally feel released from obligations that were imposed on me through responsibilities and (dare I admit it?) guilt. And freedom feels strange, but good...
What's next? I don't know. Today is my birthday, and I am typing this before I rush off for a day of work (bills don't give me a day off). But I will schedule in time to worship God and pray and seek his face. This I do every day, how much more on my birthday, right?
God willing, I will post soon, and something that will edify properly. Be blessed!
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2 comments:
isnt it not good to rub it in if they dont leave...? why do they threaten to leave anyways? are they wanting to know whether they are important enough? etc? what are they trying to say or what was the original point(s) of conflict? just my random questions :) your blog is interesting and makes me think.. (happy belated bday :p since ive stumbled across this post now...)
I'll let them rub it in themselves. One thing I have discovered that what I do to people is often not as mean as what people will do to themselves if I just back off and give them room. :)
Thanks for commenting, and thanks for your birthday wishes. Things have worked themselves out a little better, and I thank God for that. :)
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